The swine flu put me into a seventy-six day coma at the age of seventeen. This is about my ongoing battle to make it back to living a normal life.
This darkness is familiar, but I haven’t been here in forever. You’ve been dancing all alone in the darkness, and your new partner is much better than I ever could be. You sure have been productive during our time apart. I avoided showing you this because I didn’t want to clean up the shards of … Continue reading Fixable
A parasite wiggled into my ear. It's made a home there and whispers things only I can hear. It started small, but the negativity grew, until all that filled my head was what I thought that I knew, that I would never achieve my goal, fail at every turn, then time passed on and on, … Continue reading Fearful Parasite
Through the plank in your eye, you see every mistake, instability and failure. You verbalize how much I am despised. But, I think you for teaching me so many lessons, on how not to be a man, but to be a shell of bottled emotions, a bottle without a letter inside floating in the ocean. … Continue reading Feed
I have locked myself in solitude for far too long. I lost the key long ago. The guilt prevents any form of solace. I feel as if I was made to stand in the fire for all time, a fitting punishment for all of my crimes. Each moment of hatred is just more weight to … Continue reading Lost The Keys To My Cage
I am broken and ripped apart. Is this the end or another start? Is this life, or simply a hellish part? Dreams that never come true are so far away. Your face is fading from view. I am crawling towards you, but I am fading too. Don’t let go. I will fight this battle, as … Continue reading Crawling to You
"Make me an individual loser any day, as long as I'm still an individual, and not whatever normal now is and unspecial."
Beauty in the eye of a beholder, beautiful and mesmerizing, all I desire is to hold her. Consuming all the past definitions of what I believed was attractive, more precious than anything, but it must not be reflective. You don’t seem to see the perfection in your reflection. You don’t seem to know that, with … Continue reading Prepossessed
Respect others, but respect your own opinions, as well! Don't overestimate a challenge. Don't underestimate your value.
I'm so sorry, my Dear. You were everything to me. I'm so sorry, I couldn't keep you near. You were the inspiration for every verse. I'm so sorry, but I was always sincere. You were the one I would do anything for. But, my Dear, you shut that door. And, that door was bolted and … Continue reading You Were…
The guilt you say I don’t feel are the strings that hold me up. They keep me standing when all I want to do is fall. They keep me fighting when I don’t have the strength. They form a knot when my rope is out of length. I am happy to keep dancing if it … Continue reading Guilty